We hosted the first of our four weekly online sessions, on Thursday. Thank you to all those who joined the call, asked goodly questions and brought along your warming presence.
Please find a clearing and enjoy our latest offering, A ceremonial approach.
Here is the audio only version (1hr presentation + 30mins question time),
and here is the video.
We have three more sessions in July, so if you haven’t yet booked a spot here are the links.
We kicked off the ceremonial year with 60 odd (by every metric) kinfolk for our annual ceremony to honour the divine dark of the sacred feminine, for winter solstice.
To celebrate this moment, and our community’s deepening of ceremonial approaches, we publish for the first time, The sun wise ceremony calendar, specific to our mob.
We gathered with candles, seed breads, pickles, chestnut and kidney bean stew, rabbit cassoulet, quince tart, medlar pie, feijoa cheese cake, elders and kids.
We paused and listened at this time of the deep dark.
We paused and listened to Mother Country and Father Fire.
Paused and listened to old sonnets,
and newly hatched raps.
Paused and listened to soulful old songs,
and vitalising ones, sung for such a hearth.
Paused and listened to stories meticulously crafted or spoken off the cuff,
and the FireChoir brothers sang Mother of Mountain. We offer it here as a little insight into the ceremonial feast that was this year’s winter solstice gathering.
Slowly one after another we departed from the fire-lit clearing, and walked back through the dark forest to begin our patient sun wise journey towards the summer solstice.
Thank you Brett Ellenport and Leonie Van Eyk for such wonderful images.
Wherever you are we wish you a merry solstice, and a goodly pause.
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NB. If you are still wanting to attend all or any of the four online sessions we’re hosting in July, there are still some spaces available but you may want to book now.
We hosted our friend Yin Paradies at Tree Elbow over the weekend and before Yin left he and Patrick recorded a conversation focussed on their encounters within the ecology of men’s business.
Whether experienced in this subject or entirely new to it, we hope you enjoy their yarn on rites of passage, sacred economics, personal accountability, ‘fallen patriarchy,’ and reclaiming indigenous and peasant masculinities.
Listen (1hr, 6mins)
In their conversation Yin and Patrick refer to a previous dialogue Patrick had with Yin and his partner Victoria: Bridging, on the way back to indigeneity, and Patrick mentions drafting an annual ceremonial calendar as the next stage of our community’s revillaging.
Thanks for reading and listening! As always Dear Subscriber, we enjoy your feedback, comments and questions.
Make yourself a cuppa and settle in for our next long-form yarn with Yin Paradies and Victoria McKay from Anam Cara Homestead.
Both Yin and Victoria invite us to be on the bridge that spans between modernity and what they call our ‘primal’ selves, and to find and nurture fellow travellers in that place of reclaiming.
We hope you enjoy this conversation as much as we have.
Listener’s note: At one point the audio goes a tad crackly in the conversation but it doesn’t last long.
A story by Blue Wren (15 mins; read and/or listen).
Not being able to find a suitable myth to share for winter solstice, given the emplacing context of our lives in Djaara Country, as the longest night approached Blue Wren listened and opened, and in came this story. This offering was just one of many stories, poems and songs shared on the night of our community solstice celebration. We hope you enjoy this insight into our ceremonial night in our deep winter forest commons, held by Mother Country & Father Fire.
Once within a fairly timeless land, Mother Country and Father Fire ruled the earth-well worlds of the world. Wedded in exquisite union they lived harmoniously for all of days. Father Fire only a subtle disruptor, a gentle gleam in the dark, wet primordial forests of the Mother, and brought to earth by Grandfather Sun to warm, to illuminate and cook, to potash, and help make ceremony in the luscious belly of Mother Country.
One day Mother Country and Father Fire brought to life a new child, who they named Brother Eucalyptus. He grew out of the light, dusty potash of his father and the rich dark humus of his mother. He began life on the margins of great wet, shade-lit forests. Born a needy, troubled soul he soon began fighting with his siblings, especially Sister Southern Beech who ranged across her Mother with great presence. He felt unseen by his accomplished sister, and would often be found moping about on the rare scab lands of his mother.
His siblings, on the whole, found him crass and quite acidic, and they increasingly turned their backs on him, and from this grave wound of rejection he developed poison in his roots that he began to use on his Brothers and Sisters, releasing it whenever they came close. At first this didn’t matter too much, his territories were small compared with Sister Southern Beech. So, initially, no one really noticed, but gradually Brother Eucalyptus took more and more of his mother’s nutrients and life force and land for himself, and everywhere he grew the ground dried and hardened. He discovered that his inflaming disposition was conducive to making wildfire, and so he conspired to steal fire-craft from his father so that he could both poison and burn his overbearing sister and populate himself in her ruins.
One Brother, however, he could not poison or burn very well. Brother Blackwood – an inspired peacemaker – learned how to play companion to his greedy brother. Because Brother Blackwood could see his Mother suffering and depleted, he taught himself to swallow surplus quantities of nitrogen out of the air, plant himself next to Brother Eucalyptus wherever he was, and release the precious goods into his brother’s roots. Brother Blackwood taught Sisters Silver and Black Wattles to do the same, and soon they took away some of the burden off their mother. While this gift helped their mother to keep the cycles of living and dying rolling, Brother Eucalyptus continued to expand his range, causing ever greater drying and unruly fires.
For the first time in their long union, Mother Country and Father Fire began to argue. “I am the dark, Father Fire,” said Mother Country, “all the shade-filled forests, rich humus, subterranean springs, night countries and underworlds of my body enable more life to be lived. That boy is destroying me, stealing all my earth-givings. You have given him fire and he is burning all my beautiful daughters and sons. Enough is enough!” But Father Fire hadn’t given his errant son the magic and responsibility of fire. It had been stolen, like it had been stolen from Hephaestus, the industry god, by Prometheus in another world. In frustration Father Fire retorted: “Do not accuse me woman, I would not do such a thing! That boy is disrespecting me too; he is out of control!” And so went the argument for an age, backwards and forwards went their unhappiness. All the plants and fungi, the lichens, mosses, and lillies, the kestrels, wedgetails, fantails, magpies, wrens, ravens and robins, the brown snakes and black, echidnas, ringtails and owls, and all of life suffered as the parents warred, and Brother Eucalyptus continued on with his wound-rage.
Mother Country became weaker and weaker, Sister Southern Beech almost entirely disappeared, and neither of the parents could bring Brother Eucalyptus into alignment with life.
It was around this point in the story, the First People arrived. Gradually they learned to live within some of the world’s most depleted soils, and they thrived along the coasts due to the abundance of Grandmother Gaia’s many saltwater countries. After some time of listening, languaging and making ceremony, the First People began to better understand the familial feud between the great mother and father and their narcissist son. So everywhere they lived the First People dreamed with Mother Country and Father Fire and co-created rituals for deep listening and subsistence lifeways to live well with the communities of life so as to heal the rift between dark and light, heat and damp, the sacred feminine and sacred masculine, and in doing, bringing the parents of the land back into relationship.
And through this three-way alliance they developed the wisdom of fire-country land stewardship, which had the result of arresting the main harms of Brother Eucalyptus. The way the First People harnessed, respected and applied Father Fire to Mother Country, understanding each region of her in relation to fuel loads, air currents and zephyrs, ground moisture, and the propensity for potash to grow more woody life, deepened over time, and depending on where it was applied, the First People modified their practice, which brought abundance back into the belly of Mother Country. There was to be no significant return of Sister Southern Beech, and old Uncle Holly and Aunty Ivy had long since gone, but despite the morbid depletion of Mother Country, the communities of life that make life worth living began to live again, and people and plants, birds, snakes and pollinators, reptiles and marsupials developed new ways to live a good life among the scant humus and acidic soils.
Sure, there were usual human skirmishes between First Peoples, between different tribes and clans, men and women, but the unhappy colonial story of Brother Eucalyptus now guided all comers. He operated as a precautionary tale across the land. No one wanted to go back to the suffering when such total recklessness and selfishness reigned. So, for many millennia a tapestry of cultures and customs, languages and ceremonies were traded with life, with one another, and First People developed sophisticated lores pertaining to the laws of the mother and father, and a deep and abiding peace spread out across this first great era of energy descent. Even Brother Eucalyptus found some peace. It did not stop his over-taking, burning and poisoning ways, but he felt more himself in the bosom of life, rather than the sole destroyer of it.
Then, half a million new moons later upon the now spongey and rain-absorbing perennial-bread grasslands of the Mother, like a wicked spell unleashed to once again test life, wretched and trammelled First Peoples from northern lands began to arrive. The First People here came to refer to these malnourished and decultured folk as Second Peoples, because they could see they’d lost connection with their great mother and father, and therefore with the dark and the light in dynamic union. Tragically, the Second People didn’t realise how fallen from this grace they had become. They believed they carried the light better than anyone and they swore against the dark, were frightened by it, wanted to kill it off in any way they could. Their transported ideologies feared dark consciousness, feared the secreted mysteries of the divine feminine. These light-obsessed poor souls brought with them technics and poisons that were godlike and dangerous for such misshapen peoples to be playing with, and they brought an attitude of superiority, despite their wretchedness.
Much like in the early years of Brother Eucalyptus, they set out to dominate Mother Country, rob from her, and deplatform the ceremonial illuminations of Father Fire and the rich mother-bonded cultures of the First Peoples. Instead of opening with curiosity to the wisdoms of the earthly parents, they brought only one skygod with them who seemed to diminish the great Mother and her daughters. The Second Peoples had received their unilateral story delivered by the messenger, War-Brother Wheat, who had first come into presence when there were many gods and goddesses in the north who tended life. His affect eventually led to the stripping of animist cosmologies and to the development of horse-mobile armies of scale. Some Second People came to here in chains, some desperate to overcome poverty, some were what some call ‘free’, and some were mercantiles civil-ready to coordinate a mass exploitation of what some still call ‘resources’ – that is the gifts of the Mother.
Second Peoples caused untold suffering far worse than in the heady days of Brother Eucalyptus’s fury. For two hundred years most Second People found it hard to listen to Mother Country and Father Fire, they didn’t even consider it. Though some found them a novelty, they also didn’t listen to First People, and either didn’t look or joined in when First People were persecuted, debased and massacred. However, slowly and quietly Mother Country seeped her wisdom into the Second Peoples who lived in her – the farmers and hunters, the gardeners and gleaners, the swimmers of her dark snakey waterholes and the underworlders of her caves, remnant forests and bones.
Eventually the Second People felt the call to make rituals and ceremonies that honoured Mother Country and Father Fire, which derived from the gratitude they felt by living, and the sorrow they felt for the disrespect and war-mind their people had transported. They began quite naively by worshipping Brother Eucalyptus as pure and original and distinguished, despite the many new deserts he was making in other worlds at this point. And they, these well-intentioned folk, hated on the newcomer trees they’d brought with them such as fire-calming Brother Oak, who’d made immediate friends with Brother Blackwood and who brought alkalising, deciduous leaves to Mother Country to help her make humus and balance the acidic and depleting effects of Brother Eucalyptus. Likewise, another newcomer, Sister Hawthorn, brought the possibility of habitat for possums and rich medicine fruits for gang gangs and humans alike. Sister Willow was another brought to Mother Country, and who in their civil-centric guilt began to bulldoze and poison with impunity, as though they could cleanse the creeks and rivers of their forebears’ sins. This was before Second People realised the importance of Sister Willow as a nurse tree trying to restore gold- and livestock-ravaged waterways, and before remembering her gift as a basket tree when they began to walk back plastic bags.
As Second People started to turn away from Roundup-Ready War-Brother Wheat, and the other monocultures of the mind they’d transported, they began to walk with renewal and humility in their steps, alongside their First People friends and kin. One such ceremony they came together to perform was the winter solstice – the divine honouring of the feminine dark at Mother Country’s longest hour. At this ceremony they reflected upon the majesty of Mother Country – her givings, her wisdoms, her riches and her grace.
On the occasion of the winter solstice they, the people of the land, alongside Brothers Eucalyptus, Oak, Pine and Blackwood, and Sisters Cherry Ballart, Sweet Bursaria, New Holly and Hawthorn came together to sing, share story, behold the longest night and feast on the fruits and meats of Mother Country, while warmed and illuminated by the old glorious sunlight of Father Fire.
For this is a time for reculturing harmony and love between feminine and masculine, dark and light, both within ourselves and across the bodies and psyches of our kinship other. It is a time to make humus, make rituals of gratitude and return, and to honour Mother Country for all her gifts, and for teaching us how to heal from the wounds of war, and live and love alongside her within the many underworlding possibilities of her dark.
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Thanks to Jordan Osmond for the cover photograph and Catie Payne for the use of her microphone.
We’ve been pollution-sick again, which has been inhibiting our enjoyment of this rich and colourful country.
Patrick and Woody have had it worse than Meg, but each of us have have struggled in our own way. Blackwood is also experiencing homesickness: “I miss our food, I miss my ball on a string, and I miss my friends at Forest & Free.”
When booking transport over the past 12 days in Thailand, we have found it best to stick with people on the ground and avoid the national railway or bus websites. While digital, cross-language communications might improve over time, it currently doesn’t match pointing, grunting, nodding, shaking, laughing or any combination of body gesturing to get on the right train, ending with a khawp khun kha/p!
What we’ve also found difficult about being in this beautiful country, apart from our own participation in what we dislike most about global tourism, is the homogenisation process that is creeping in everywhere there is development. An example of this is the Safety First signage that proliferates through the country.
We think the ‘Safety third’ ethos of the early Burning Man festivals is wiser. Without a little daily danger or risk, our bodies switch off, they lose an alertness, which we think pre-disposes people to becoming accident-prone and even compliant. We’d prefer to live in a world where sharp metal lugs stick out below bus seats,
and rusty metal blades come out of the footpaths,
and a billion or so unleashed dogs inherit the streets by day and night, than live under the cult of safetyism. We’ve loved beholding the autonomous culturing of dogs in Thailand. No one fears them here. When we think of life back home, walking with Zero around Lake Daylesford, there is always one, if not five people who recoil with horror that our little scruffy is off a lead. Oh, Zero! you would love it here!
How western imperialism appears to work as a global-machine-conglomerate is to covet all the major issues of ‘the global village’ into a set of preordained arguments. These arguments are never framed by independent, bioregional, democratic, or indigenous thought – although there’s a fair bit of theatre in places like the UN and in universities that purport heterodox or alternative voices are heard – instead, they are created to serve large global markets, which always have a homogenising effect. That’s why this Thai motorway looks like it could be in South Melbourne, sans the signage.
Because the human world is now so advanced in preordained, market thinking, solving problems is difficult. Climate change has been a theory in the orbit of scientists since the 1930s and yet the machinations that reportedly drive climate change have only steadily worsened over 85 years. To make things worse there’s now a very large industry that’s grown out of ‘Climate’, a kind of Jevon’s Effect industry, making those who are financially welded to it hard to trust. Big money has a way with decision making that the empire is perennially blind to. This is why it is so hard to trust the expert class.
By contrast Monks here live with little and ask for their food, which encourages acts of generosity in the culture. They are trusted and loved.
When we crossed the border into Thailand in this weird little space shuttle of a van,
we came to realise that our fellow passengers were Malay dopenauts who’d come to the only country marijuana is legalised in southeast Asia. When they alighted, we too got out of the van and stepped into light rain falling in the little city of Hat Yai.
We changed currencies,
and found a family-run establishment to buy lunch.
Across the road from where we were to stay that night was a friendly little family-run garage.
By day they service motors. By night they serve beer and pork, and punters cook a ‘set’ or two on little drop-in table BBQs.
As we’ve travelled we’ve tuned our eyes to seek out local tree crop fruits that come with their own thick-skinned packaging,
and have sought out local snacks such as grilled banana,
which are sold wrapped in banana leaves.
And, as everywhere, we like to buy direct from growers’ markets.
In Thailand we delighted not just in the dogs that are left to dance on their own accord, but the plants too;
and in the technologies that quieten the streets and produce no exhaust;
and in the vegetables cultivated locally and sold proudly by growers;
and in the overhead lanterns that mark such a street a night market;
and in all the little,
and big places of ritual, offering and worship;
and in all the kind gestures we’ve witnessed, such as this lady bus conductor eyeing an elderly man who had no hope of reaching the bus stop in time, request to the driver to stop, then urge him to back up, before helping the oldtimer up the steps and into a seat.
The driver was not in the least bit annoyed by this delay in his proceedings.
It took us a few goes to leave Hat Yai. We’d booked our tickets online, and so we thought this was our train,
but it was two days early according to the computations of our tickets. We managed to get on one later that night,
which took us to Surat Thani. We arrived just after midnight in a bit of a blur,
and were thankful for another kind lady, who waited up and let us into our tiny room.
While in Surat Thani we did some day tripping,
We took a local bus, then a truck,
to a market, where we ate Shrimp Pad Thai,
which came in this beautiful little leaf bowl,
and bought bananas with sticky rice.
Later in the day we went in search of a nearby agricultural cooperative, only to find the gates shut and no one around.
We reacquainted ourselves with an interesting weed on the walk there. Mimosa pudica, which we were first shown back in Timor Leste by Sebas, who called it, Shy Maria, is a herb that responds dramatically to being touched, going from upright to prostrate at the slightest feel.
Mimosa pudica is not the broad cut-leaf creeping plant that dominates around Meg’s feet in the photo above, but the small little fern-like leaf plant she is gently caressing. You might have to zoom in to see. We found this paper on the benefits of this sensitive medicinal plant, which states, “[i]t majorly possesses antibacterial, antivenom, antifertility, anticonvulsant, antidepressant, aphrodisiac, and various other pharmacological activities. The herb has been used traditionally for ages, in the treatment of urogenital disorders, piles, dysentery, sinus, and also applied on wounds.”
Plants offer us the possibility of rewiring our nervous systems,
and appropriate technologies offer the possibility of maintaining or recovering our health,
and humourous exchanges offer up the possibility of living with lightness.
Prachuap Khiri Khan is a town by the sea. We stopped there for a night, walked from the station via the food market,
dropped our bags, where we took this photo,
and walked down to the ocean.
Subsistence and local market fishing at the scale of these little boats will never dismantle biodiversity in the world’s oceans.
Only ‘feeding the world’ via the global-machine-conglomerate will do that, as Patrick’s teenage love, Karina, unpacked in her film Blue.
The next day we were back on the rails. An old rattler, hot, noisy and fumesy. We all started off well,
looking out to the rice fields and lyrical wirings,
but as the day continued, and it got hotter, and the dirty squalls coming into the carriage refused to bring comfort, we all started to fade.
By the time we reached the outskirts of Bangkok,
a city of 17 million people, we were fairly wasted.
Although, Meg still had a little spirit, and so we awarded her this watermelon for being the most resilient member of the band.
We’d booked online a little cheap room near the station,
but didn’t know it was right in the middle of a western tourist zone. You know: beer, pizza, cocktails, dope, all night revelling, maybe a dash of Pad Thai and Houellebecqian sleaze. The only picture we took here doesn’t really capture it, rather we were once again collecting photos of vines growing over powerlines.
Woody and Patrick pretty much slept for two days and nights. It was a low key anniversary of Patrick and Meg’s, and Zero’s 14th birthday. Happy birthday little fella! We miss you Zero. Thanks for loving him in your home Black Cockatoo!
The pollution in Bangkok was next level, and after we’d slept through it for a few days, we hightailed it out on another hot, old rattler.
This six hour ride was gruelling, especially for Patrick. It is the combination of heat and pollution that is so harsh for this fella who has spent most of his life in cool mountain fields and forests. Patrick hadn’t had asthma since he was in Hong Kong, 27 years earlier. In Bangkok and on this train he struggled to breathe,
and if he didn’t go to bed when we arrived at our hotel in Nakhon Ratchasima and do 4 rounds of Wim Hof breathing, he would have required a hospital ventilator. The breathing method opened up his air passages, which brought a few hours of peace and rest, before he started burning up. He then spent the next two nights and days in and out of fever. He fasted, drank water, dried his sheets over the oven-like balcony rail outside our room, and collapsed back into bed.
When we all surfaced from this time, which included having to change hotels for another night of convalescing, we walked straight out into a street festival the locals had put on to raise money for the monks.
In leaving Nakhon Ratchasima, we thought we’d mix up the transportation a little,
and jumped on a bus,
to Khon Kaen.
We loved the stick food on offer here, though trying to buy food naked has been a challenge in Thailand. Shopkeepers seem to need to close the deal by wrapping your purchase in plastic. It takes a watchfulness to arrest this urge.
The following day we headed to the Khon Kaen train station,
where we were met by this little remnant life force.
We waited to catch the last train we were going to board in Thailand,
and that afternoon travelled to Nong Khai on the border with Laos. Feeling better than we have for days, we had dinner with the locals who have a penchant for green chairs,
and red shrines.
To get into Laos the visa process is a little complicated. So we have had some days here to wait, and to look across the river to the path we have chosen to get to India. Myanmar is too dangerous to cross at this time, and there is no longer a ferry or boat option across the Bay of Bengal. Hence why we’re here, in the north of Thailand.
We’ve been on the road seven weeks now and we’ve just hit another sweet spot here in Nong Khai.
Wherever you are in the world, Dear Reader, we hope you too are experiencing a sweet spot in your life. Sending much love to you from us here, and thanks so much for following along on our journey.